1. Viscious kitten

All alone with nothing to do
but to play with herself and
the objects around her
The lonliness must make her occupy
her time with scattered,
violent playfulness
Twitch a thousand times
before she finally hits the ground
and then slides around the floor
into a wall
Never slowing down, all she wants
to do is play with bites and scratches
pick her up, she'll try to get you!
it doesn't take too much to keep
her busy, wastes her mind of all the
other prettys, I'll respond to you
Viscous kitten
when you put her down, she'll come
back for more, because she has
no one else to rastle with, no friends
but the chair, a little bit of string,
one toy, and if she's lucky, some
clothes on the carpet
you see I'll give her all the attention
she needs, because she wants it for
me, yes, she'll give it back
and for anyone who needs the
attention that bad and shows it
like she, I will repond as much
I'll give to those who want to get
so they can give, and I don't mind
being scratched or bitten
viscous kitten
I love you my viscous kitten

2. Teaching you
teaching you the way to act
showing you the wayto live
giving examples from the start
your life begins to play their part
do you accept the fallacy
that's eating at your mind?
do you really enjoy who you are?

3. It won't go away
The end is what comes to mind
I've tried to lock it away
the end is what I leave behind
but it catches up to play

with my soul it has its fun
turns and tests my being
lets me wonder if I want
the existence of my meaning

whats been done, what will be
try so hard, still can't see
want to forget, but today
came back again, won't go away

It won't go away

I've tried everything to forget
how much I truely want to touch
the hand of the end, and dragged
forever. I suppose the unknown
cries for me to be with them, so
many times through every way, I've
fought, ignored, and ran

4. Dead people are special

I can't sleep because I'm dreaming
of things that could become
I can't think because I'm needing
and wanting to belong
I can't breathe because I'm thinking
of how I'm going to die
I can't sleep cause pain is seeming
to keep this all night

(various verbs ending with -ing)
so you see it's not more
surprise, that's all, you will get yours
bye, by the way that you are
lies, you wouldn't listen

I won't breathe and you will see me
in every magazine
that's why I'm a fucking trip
tonight I can't believe
Why can't I now just get rid of th
weak pyschology
In my head, it makes me sick but
I still think it's neat

go to sleep
in time you will endeavor
bye, the way that you are
find the way you want to be

Dead people are special

I can't live because I'm thinking that
I could be a God
I don't know what to be doing at times
I have forgot
Think I'll live in pain and suffering
when will my time begin
how about I just live forever
to start then I must end

5. ...and she is beautiful
Crooked smile, with slits for eyes
shimmery complexion
Narrow shoulders, larger thighs
she's filled with my affection

kind of dirty, but still smells nice
I don't believe, you'd find her cute
by societys standards, very strange
not accepted, not pursued

Through her life, she's been abused
ignored, and without sympathy
interrupted by people like you
and yes, she's just like me

How could something good
come from so much wrong
Thanks to the rejecting
the weak become the strong

6. Fake another kiss
Desperate for anything
sell me like a drug
lock me in your closet
until you want to come

will you use your lonley toy
take me now, show and tell
fly me straight to heaven
then drop me into hell

Fuck me for pleasure
throw me on the floor
steal my clothes from me
then lock me out the door
make me perform tricks
and give me no reward
I'm so devoted
I begin to beg for more

Shove me to the ground
push me to my grave
as for in the meantime
use me as your slave
suck me into nothing
so I will not exist
tell me you love me
please fake another kiss

make fun of all me suffering
laugh at me when I want to cry
exploit me as I'm hurting
enjoy your life as I die

will you leave me games to play
with all the girls and boys
plastic does work better
for holes that do employ

7. Joy order

8. I like people
Once I was myself
then immediately teased
had to counteract
so that they would accept me
Not enough attention
they never talked to me
all of them ignored it
when I tried to be friendly

I like people, but people don't like me

Then I really changed
all on my own
became a different person
but still I was alone
Lots of people knew me
even liked me to
but they never called me
they had to much to do

I like people, but people don't like me

I can't be myself
I don't want to be you
don't wanna make you mad
want you to like me to
I Need compatability
give it to me
you must give it to Me

became myself again
and now I am a man
but if something is said wrong
they won't understand
Take it to offense
and try to hurt me bad
I don't know what to say
and I've never had

9. Kinda
will you trow out my desert?
and copy in a silly girl
we shall see which one is asking
bring the stand to the table

In the way you scratch your head
with time we'll be matching that stand
sit with the kitchen in your stackland
clean up your room in bed

with the kind nug
better off just friends
all men aint bad
just most of them
who's the one to blame
fuck formality
common curteousty
all my paychecks are gone

now I know what I've been thinking
I reread the first printing
sex is always is interesting though
deserts always seem to show

try to let me relieve your head
with this we'll be needing that stand
sit with your kitchen in the stack land
clean up your room in bed

10. In happiness I hide
A wonderful feeling, is inside
sun shines all around me
Those around me, I don't mind
down a path of flowers and trees

No one can determine
the streangth I feel inside
Everybody knows me
in happiness I hide

Everything is beautiful
indoors and outside
everybody knows me
in happpiness...
I Hide!!!

a distant expression I confide
to keep those ones away
that tell the truth about my
problems everyday

11. The way to end
Things again are getting to me now
I see the end, the only way is out
we've tried before, you've never
really listened whore
cause now the thing I hate
you've done once more

I've tried too long
to answer, accept, to admit
that I was wrong
I've tried, so hard
but now that you've decided
to leave it's not my fault

This time I've found the way to end

I must say, that we were once in love
but today, I'd say I've had enough
Although I see such beautiful memories
then begins the pain you've always caused me

I don't mind
was too ashamed to tell you
that you were not my type
you are lost
and now that you're gone I can
realize that I'm not

12. It doesn't mean you do
to say you care, doesn't mean you do
to say you love me, doesn't mean you do
but what I want is proof from you
yes, what I need, is for you to mean it

to say you like it, doesn't mean you do
to say you're honest, doesn't mean it's true
did someone hurt me, I say to you
No, all I am saying, is that you're full of shit

to say you want to, doesn't mean you will
I don't beleive you, cause of how you feel
wich is nothing much and, I'd rather not fight
with something you don't see and won't even try

You'll never understand
what you'll always do
so I'll not waste my time
Goodbye I'm leaving, You!!!
cause it doesn't mean you do

I've known you're lying, for quite some time
but for some dumb reason, I thought you'd find
That what you're saying, isn't really true
and now you learn, from what you get

Kick you in the face
and then you'll find you're wrong
wrong about what you say
by then I'll be far gone

13. Lovers leap
14. By you, my dear
15. Meaningless Desire
16. I'm wrong, You're right
17. Past, present, future
a friend of mine just passed away
that's all I've really got to say
but isn't words just things that last
and so I give not to the past

for if I do, I'd rather go
don't belong, now I know

not to the past
a part of me that wants me dead
not to the past
a part of me that was my friend
straight into the past
I will go to hurt myself again
straight to the past
fuck it, might as well start tomorrow!
sell my shit tommorrow
gimmie some money to borrow
think I'll start tomorrow

I miss and so I want to kill me
don't understand why didn't and can't I stop
leave me alone, I just want you to be alive again
give me no home, so I can feel what you've been in

so if I can't, but I must do
then what is wrong is that
I'm not gone too

18. My enemy, my friend
with the door, to the bedroom in time
let's go there with you, all my life
give me the thing that can never be gave
let me stop to tell you that I wouldn't
shoot myself

accept my love for it's great when it's gone
and better evolved with you, when I'm wrong
Took my girl through a pleathro of pain
let me try to tell you that she
gave it all away

Tears that fell were with precision and greed
caught them with my tounge and swallowed
faithfully
grabbing all we can cause we're so much in love,
spend our time together below, as above

let us be free withen our misery
and it's good cause it's wrong
but it seems to be working
so well
most of the time it can fit me so nice
and she likes it a lot just to keep me from
not getting dull

but most of the time we're just fine
and we dance and laugh and sing
say goodnight, la la la
give me to my lover to the end of the world
can not find a reason, so she gives me one,
gives me just one more
Standing with each other until we are dead
love her as my enemy, love her, as my friend

19. Living, just to die